Before reading this post, please click here and read a post I had blogged in 2012 called, “3 Pennies” because it will make a lot more sense!
While I was going through the darkness of dealing with the bad job and feeling so much uncertainty of what to do and what would be next for me, I read Mandy Hale’s Beautiful Uncertainty: Singleness, Surrender, and Stepping Out on Faith. I don’t think I could have read a better book at the time.
There is a chapter, in which she encourages the reader to pray and ask for a “God wink.” A God wink is something that is special and unique only between you and God. The whole idea is to ask for a sign from God to let you know that He is there.
This is something I had wanted really bad. My relationship with God and the universe had been so silent for a while and now I wanted to know for sure that He was there, He was listening, and He knew what I was going through.
I read the prayer at the end of the chapter and I continued to pray about it alone silently in my bedroom while I laid on my bed. My hands grasped together tightly on my stomach and my eyes clenched shut as if that helps to pray harder.
Give me a sign. Please, just give me a sign.
Eventually, I peeked my eyes open and looked around my room as if some sort of sign magically appeared while they were closed; like it would happen that fast. Nothing yet. Continue reading